No. I’m not doing a podcast.
I did, however, get mentioned on the Poly Weekly podcast over the weekend. I noticed a flurry of hits to one of my writings, and traced it back here: http://polyweekly.com/2014/01/pw-380-advice-secondary/
Oddly, I haven’t been able to listen to it. Special Man Friend listened for me, and said it was fine and that I should listen to it, but I’m nervous and self-conscious about the whole thing. I feel like a little girl who is suddenly looking at her feet and shuffling her toe in the dirt when she gets noticed. It’s kind of scary.
I’m considering a trip to the Atlanta Poly Weekend in June. I’m debating submitting a class proposal, but I’d love to just attend and absorb too. I can’t make my mind up about anything lately. SMF and I had a big blow up a few days ago, and everything feels tenuous and unclear right now. I told him tonight, that I needed to take a step back, and figure out what it is that I really need. One of the last things he said to me earlier, was “Thank you for not breaking up with me tonight.” I know it was a little bit tongue in cheek.
But only a little bit.