I like having relationships. I like connection, and intimacy, and comfortably “fitting” with another person in some way. This includes my children, my work friends, my sisters, not just romantic relationships.
On my OkCupid profile, which really should be rewritten at some point, I say that I “hate” first dates. This is probably an understatement. I also say that I’d just like to be teleported into Date Three, and that would be just fine, thank you very much. Unfortunately, nobody has found a way to do that for me yet. Both the Hippie and the Reporter kind of dance around me, saying hello, making small talk, confusing the hell out of me. I told my sweet friend Amy this week, that I’m not in any mood to spoon feed Reporter my awesomeness.
I was sort of kidding. But mostly not.
I’m too old for this. I want sincere, honest, open people who know what they want. I don’t want to make small talk forever! Tell me what you want. You want a casual twice a month lunch and afternoon sex date? Let’s negotiate. You want a lust filled, mad love affair? Let’s talk. You want to explore a deep emotional connection? Tell me more. Do you want a chat buddy? Meh.
I’m a busy, busy girl…