Salou Hack

~Sidenote~

Today I made I lighthearted joke to my guy, that I was an “accidental polyamorist.” His reply? “I’m not even convinced you’re really polyamorous.” Huh.

I woke up at 6AM this morning. (This is a big, big deal.) I have an absolute need to streamline my things. I must remove clutter and excess. There are bags and bags of stuff lining my hallway, waiting to be taken and donated to the secondhand store. I don’t need it. I don’t wantContinue reading “~Script~”

~Held~

There are words inside me, but they are stuck fast to the center of my chest and they will not, can not come out. Your root beer eyes, hold mine until I look away. The words move to my throat, and I swallow them back down. My universe is shifting. Grab me, quick before IContinue reading “~Held~”

~Christening~

I’m debating. Special Man Friend has a name. (It’s not actually Special Man Friend.) It’s awkward to type Special Man Friend each time I want to refer to him here. It’s also not very catchy, not particularly charming, and does not roll off the tongue easily. I do call him Mister often, along with aContinue reading “~Christening~”

~Bust~

April is almost gone. I did not find a date. I’m pretty much the most monogamous poly person I know. ~Ginger

~Soliloquy~

I want my brain to quiet and simply be. I want to be alone in the place that teaches me that I am stronger than I think, that I am whole, that I am complete. I want to sink into the depths of myself, where I slowly, gently, touch those dark corners of my innerContinue reading “~Soliloquy~”

~In Brief~

“Everything you want is on the other side of fear.” -Jack Canfield What I’m really afraid of is that I don’t have it in me to do this hard thing well. That I’m not loving enough, understanding enough, selfless enough. That I don’t have it in me, to do good poly. That I will getContinue reading “~In Brief~”

~ Wednesday ~

Place your hands upon me like a big tent preacher and with a whisper heal all that aches inside. Put your lips upon my forehead and glance your eyes to the sky, tell me that I’ll walk again and tell me I can fly. Hold me like a revival and shake the demons from myContinue reading “~ Wednesday ~”

~Ode To The Pet Name~

I am outspoken, opinionated, and difficult. I have a hard, cynical edge. I laugh too loudly, judge too harshly. I am impatient and short tempered. I am independent. Driven. Feisty. Logical to a fault. Jaded. Sometimes I lay awake in the dark, fighting with the demon that whispers to me that I’m not good enough.Continue reading “~Ode To The Pet Name~”

~Consciousness~

“It was rather beautiful: the way he put her insecurities to sleep. The way he dove into her eyes and starved all the fears and tasted all the dreams she kept coiled beneath her bones.” ― Christopher Poindexter