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~Fuck You, Feelings.~

Dear Emotion, Our relationship just isn’t working for me anymore. I have put in hours and hours of effort and understanding with you. I have listened and pondered and reflected. I have absorbed; integrated. I have tried sitting with you, embracing you, being in the moment with you. I have also wasted my time arguing,Continue reading “~Fuck You, Feelings.~”

~Love Letter For My Monogamous Sister~

“The reason you hang out with those alternative people”, she says, “is because they condone your bad behavior. Like drug addicts, who make each other feel like what they’re doing is alright. Good, even.” Silence. A million thoughts dart behind my eyes. And then, as she continues to speak, her words fade, and I settleContinue reading “~Love Letter For My Monogamous Sister~”

Stage Fright.

It’s been about 36 hours since I posted my very first entries on my very first blog. I have had 1,223 visits, as of right now. Granted, at least fifteen of those visits were me, just admiring how pretty the layout was, and marveling over the fact that other people could see what I wasContinue reading “Stage Fright.”

~Five Things Your Metamour Wants You To Know~

1) I love the same person you love, though not ever in the same way. Never the same. I cannot quantify love: not mine; not yours; not anyone’s. I understand exquisitely, that when he is with me, he is not with you, and I am grateful that you are willing to gift me a portionContinue reading “~Five Things Your Metamour Wants You To Know~”

~Compersion, Thou Art A Harsh Mistress~

I think compersion is overrated. There. I said it. There’s nothing in the poly world that has the potential to make me feel more inadequate than the concept of compersion. Compersion as defined by Wikipedia (because, you know, it isn’t a word that has even made it into the dictionary, at least as far asContinue reading “~Compersion, Thou Art A Harsh Mistress~”

Reminder…

“Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.” ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

~Five Things Your Secondary Wants You To Know~

1) My time with you is limited, and valuable to me. I look forward to seeing you and I even count down the days. I like knowing that you see our time as sacred. If you indiscriminately change plans or cancel, it can make me feel disposable and well, second. Secondary doesn’t mean second place.Continue reading “~Five Things Your Secondary Wants You To Know~”

Yet Another Relationship Essay

I am writing this as a journal entry. It is for me, about me, to me. I am only one girl with a small voice who is not in any position to preach to any choir or present herself as an expert on anything except her very own thoughts, her secret fears, and her fantasticContinue reading “~~Yet Another Relationship Essay~~”

Lovely…

“When you love someone, you do not love them all the time, in exactly the same way, from moment to moment. It is an impossibility. It is even a lie to pretend to. And yet this is exactly what most of us demand. We have so little faith in the ebb and flow of life,Continue reading “Lovely…”

~Perfect Poly~

Polyamory. It’s the in thing. All the cool kids are doing it. The rules are simple. Identify and analyze every single emotion you have, and then communicate the fuck out of them to every person involved. Everyone is striving for that elusive secret to poly enlightenment. “If only we really understood our true feelings,” weContinue reading “~Perfect Poly~”