children – Page 2 – Poly Nirvana

~Easy~

Thanksgiving was wonderful. There’s no other word for it. It felt happy and comfortable. My house was full, the food was delicious, and my kids didn’t embarrass me. After years of parenting, I figure if my children know this one rule, it covers most behavior: Don’t embarrass me. Fortunately, they can all quote this ruleContinue reading “~Easy~”

~Touch~

I named him Leo, after Leo McGarry from West Wing. He was born ten days before I started nursing school, and he’s an enthusiastic, energetic, creative, affectionate and loving kid. This sucks. I’d like to say, all’s well that ends well, but right now even my bones are exhausted, and Leo just told meContinue reading “~Touch~”

~Singular~

You know what I kind of love? My one-word titles. It wasn’t always like this, the single word blog post title.But it evolved fairly quickly. Now I find choosing a title, almost as pleasurable as writing a good post. That’s a little weird, right? I don’t care. I’m weird. Sometimes the title comes first. SometimesContinue reading “~Singular~”

~Sometimes~

Sometimes when I want to write, I’ve got nothing to share. At least I feel that way. The truth is, I have a million things I could write about. But I tell myself: Meh. This morning, laying in my bed alone in the dark, listening to my children get ready for school, I found myselfContinue reading “~Sometimes~”

~Uno~

Special Man Friend and his wife came for cards and pizza. It was the first time CC met my children. I cleaned my kitchen and sent one of the boys to pick up pizza. I was really nervous. When I came out to my kids as poly, I was genuinely surprised at the neutrality of theirContinue reading “~Uno~”

~So~

My ex-husband is getting married. In two weeks. I found out about this a week ago. Being formerly LDS, and married in the LDS temple, where “eternal marriage” is considered the most holy of ordinances, I received a letter from the church asking me my feelings about him being “sealed” to another woman. “Hallelujah”, IContinue reading “~So~”

~Morning~

This morning one of my teenagers woke me up with a hug, and said, “Thanks for feeding me so I don’t starve, Mom.” Understandably confused by this sudden display of gratitude, I asked him what he wanted, thinking that he wanted money or something. “It’s Valentine’s Day,” he said, “and I’m trying to be nice.”Continue reading “~Morning~”

~Not~

Today is not my birthday. But it is the day I gave birth to a small child, fourteen years ago. I called him my angel baby from the beginning. He had such a soft and shiny way about him. Now I look at him and my heart worries. He is still soft and shines bright.Continue reading “~Not~”

~Aftermath~

Christmas afternoon I wandered around surveying the damage, taking a few pictures. The ham dinner was done, the presents unwrapped. Children lounged here and there, and all I wanted was a nap. My youngest had burned her arm on a hot cookie sheet, and I had forgotten to put the candy canes on the treeContinue reading “~Aftermath~”

~Eve~

I remember the electric anticipation of Christmas Eve when I was a small girl. Christmas was magic at my house. My mother lived and breathed Christmas. We did not have a lot of money, but Christmas was absolutely monumental. Toys laid out from Santa, everywhere; stockings overflowing with treasures. My mom loved it. Sugar cookiesContinue reading “~Eve~”