Family – Page 2 – Poly Nirvana

~Hi~

I’ve got holiday burnout. (What? Already?) Yep. I think my enthusiasm tank was running low after Georgia’s surgery, which I haven’t written much about. There were complications. She’s fine. Mostly. Yesterday we had our “official” Christmas dinner. We did it early. I am working the Christmas holiday this year, which means I work 12 hoursContinue reading “~Hi~”

~Cookies~

I stayed up late last night, baking mediocre cookies and building a gingerbread house. I was so tired. I didn’t want to bake cookes. I wanted to have cookies for today’s monthly poly potluck, which was a holiday cookie exchange, but I am not a baker. I should stick with what I know. I should haveContinue reading “~Cookies~”

~Easy~

Thanksgiving was wonderful. There’s no other word for it. It felt happy and comfortable. My house was full, the food was delicious, and my kids didn’t embarrass me. After years of parenting, I figure if my children know this one rule, it covers most behavior: Don’t embarrass me. Fortunately, they can all quote this ruleContinue reading “~Easy~”

~Touch~

I named him Leo, after Leo McGarry from West Wing. He was born ten days before I started nursing school, and he’s an enthusiastic, energetic, creative, affectionate and loving kid. This sucks. I’d like to say, all’s well that ends well, but right now even my bones are exhausted, and Leo just told meContinue reading “~Touch~”

~Sometimes~

Sometimes when I want to write, I’ve got nothing to share. At least I feel that way. The truth is, I have a million things I could write about. But I tell myself: Meh. This morning, laying in my bed alone in the dark, listening to my children get ready for school, I found myselfContinue reading “~Sometimes~”

~Birthday~

Last weekend I celebrated my birthday with my kids and Special Man and CC. At least that was the plan. We were preparing our Tiny Food (for our Tiny Food party), when my mother walked in. I heard her voice from the kitchen as she walked in. “It’s my mother,” I whispered to SMF. NowContinue reading “~Birthday~”

~Uno~

Special Man Friend and his wife came for cards and pizza. It was the first time CC met my children. I cleaned my kitchen and sent one of the boys to pick up pizza. I was really nervous. When I came out to my kids as poly, I was genuinely surprised at the neutrality of theirContinue reading “~Uno~”

~Secret~

My ex-husband lives in a homeless shelter, and there’s nothing I can do about it. In the six years since I took my children and left, he has deteriorated into a person I hardly recognize. I started to read something today, about the #WhyIStayed stories trending on the interwebs. These are the stories of abuseContinue reading “~Secret~”

~So~

My ex-husband is getting married. In two weeks. I found out about this a week ago. Being formerly LDS, and married in the LDS temple, where “eternal marriage” is considered the most holy of ordinances, I received a letter from the church asking me my feelings about him being “sealed” to another woman. “Hallelujah”, IContinue reading “~So~”

~Complicated~

It always is, isn’t it. I’m not even talking specifically about relationship structures, and interpersonal interactions. I’m just talking about LIFE. Making sure that there’s milk in the fridge and toilet paper in the closet, and that you take your iron pill every day. Keeping an eye on the laundry so that you aren’t beingContinue reading “~Complicated~”