Family – Page 4 – Poly Nirvana

~Color~

“Red”, I write “is the color of life. It’s blood, passion, rage. It’s menstrual flow and after birth. Beginnings and violent end. Red is the color of love. Beating hearts and hungry lips. Roses, Valentines, cherries. Red is the color of shame. Crimson cheeks and spilled blood. Broken hearts, opened veins.” ~ Mary Hogan, Pretty FaceContinue reading “~Color~”

~Start~

Ten years ago today, a small boy was born, and I was his mother. When he was twelve days old, I packed him into a baby sling, and took him with me to my orientation for nursing school. I had gotten into a very competitive program, and I wasn’t going to lose my spot. IContinue reading “~Start~”

~Worship~

I have a story I need to tell. A story about My Big Fat Mormon Family. It’s a story so complex, so convoluted, so fucked up, that I don’t even know what the first sentence should be. I come from a family, well rooted in the Mormon faith. ( I use the term faith veryContinue reading “~Worship~”

~Gift~

This week is Meta’s birthday. I want to get her a unique and interesting gift. Because she is unique and interesting. She’s amazingly intelligent and she has an ass that I would kill for. (It’s a little bit intimidating, that ass; that’s how perfect it is.) She has great taste in shoes, she’s athletic andContinue reading “~Gift~”

~Cheater~

I was getting ready for a date, in that slow, enjoyable manner that girls mostly love, when they are allowed to pamper themselves. My daughter was quietly watching, with a lipstick in one hand, and a small mirror in the other. “Who is your date with? Special Man Friend?” she says. “Nope”, I say, “aContinue reading “~Cheater~”

~Out~

Special Man Friend thinks that we should be out to my family and kids as polyamorous. What that means for me, is that my children, who know know him as my almost-two-year-boyfriend, would have to reconcile the fact that I am very much in love with him…and that his wife is okay with that. NotContinue reading “~Out~”

~Constellation~

It’s been almost a year since my son was in a fairly serious car accident, and was taken via Life Flight to a hospital in Seattle in an attempt to save one of his kidneys. Special Man Friend and I had been dating for almost eight months at that point. We knew we loved eachContinue reading “~Constellation~”