Fear – Page 5 – Poly Nirvana

~Microscope~

So this happened yesterday: My little blog got reviewed…. Initially I was suspicious. My throat got tight, and I could feel my heartbeat speed up. (Also, I kind of wanted to throw up.) Intellectually, I know there are real people who read what I write, and have opinions. I am absolutely sure that some DearContinue reading “~Microscope~”

~Encounter~

I went on a date. A first date. This was a big thing. I absolutely hate first dates. I feel scrutinized, awkward, and nervous. My palms sweat and I can’t think of anything smart or witty enough to say. Generally I just feel like I want to throw up. This boy contacted me on OkCupid.Continue reading “~Encounter~”

~Stuck~

I can’t write. I am frozen, because my self-edit button is constantly on. I’m not quite anonymous here, and I’m constantly wondering who I know, knows that this is me. I know my guy does, which means my Metamour does. So when I want to say something like, “I’m pretty sure my boyfriend’s wife wishesContinue reading “~Stuck~”