Love – Page 3 – Poly Nirvana

~Fine~

Disclaimer: This is the real poly that goes on in my imperfect life. It is neither enlightened, nor glamorous, despite what you may think of my awesome poly skills. You have been warned. Alright, poly peeps. Let’s say, you’re having a crabby day. And, in an effort to cheer you up, your partner sends youContinue reading “~Fine~”

~Strange~

Tomorrow morning is our monthly poly potluck. It’s a community thing, and it ranges from a handful of people, to around twenty people, depending on the month. I don’t always attend, as I generally work Sunday nights, and I like to be home with the kids and then I sleep in the afternoon. This monthContinue reading “~Strange~”

~Touch~

I named him Leo, after Leo McGarry from West Wing. He was born ten days before I started nursing school, and he’s an enthusiastic, energetic, creative, affectionate and loving kid. This sucks. I’d like to say, all’s well that ends well, but right now even my bones are exhausted, and Leo just told meContinue reading “~Touch~”

~Singular~

You know what I kind of love? My one-word titles. It wasn’t always like this, the single word blog post title.But it evolved fairly quickly. Now I find choosing a title, almost as pleasurable as writing a good post. That’s a little weird, right? I don’t care. I’m weird. Sometimes the title comes first. SometimesContinue reading “~Singular~”

~Forward~

I’m really excited about a lot of things. I’m also nervous, because I’ve decided to take some risks which put the possibility of failure on my figurative, full to overflowing, plate . Still, it’s a fantastic feeling to have plans and ideas to look ahead to. I’ve cut one shift every other week at theContinue reading “~Forward~”

~Uno~

Special Man Friend and his wife came for cards and pizza. It was the first time CC met my children. I cleaned my kitchen and sent one of the boys to pick up pizza. I was really nervous. When I came out to my kids as poly, I was genuinely surprised at the neutrality of theirContinue reading “~Uno~”

~Secret~

My ex-husband lives in a homeless shelter, and there’s nothing I can do about it. In the six years since I took my children and left, he has deteriorated into a person I hardly recognize. I started to read something today, about the #WhyIStayed stories trending on the interwebs. These are the stories of abuseContinue reading “~Secret~”

~Time~

I’m in the mountains this week. It’s green and lovely, and I can hear myself think. My main thought last week: Poly is hard, y’all. This week? Relationships are hard. Special Man and I broke up. Nothing is ever all good, or all bad. No person, no relationship. But poly is especially hard. Especially whenContinue reading “~Time~”

~So~

My ex-husband is getting married. In two weeks. I found out about this a week ago. Being formerly LDS, and married in the LDS temple, where “eternal marriage” is considered the most holy of ordinances, I received a letter from the church asking me my feelings about him being “sealed” to another woman. “Hallelujah”, IContinue reading “~So~”

~Try~

Last night a couple of my demons came out from their hiding places, just to remind me that they are still there. They are smaller, and less threatening than I remember them being, but they still took me by surprise. Special Man and I had a date which for some reason, was difficult for meContinue reading “~Try~”