Metamour – Page 2 – Poly Nirvana

~Chili~

Special Man makes a good chili. No, he makes a great chili. Before I met him, I had no idea that people make chili without beans. On purpose. Just to eat. I mean, I had bought no-bean chili in a can for chili dogs for my kids. But SMF’s chili has all sorts of meatContinue reading “~Chili~”

~Tuesday~

I’ve reread last nights post. Several times. It’s probably the only time I’ve written in the heat of the moment like that. It was reactionary, and emotional. I thought about deleting it, especially as I’m still all worked up and wacky over it. But I can’t delete it. Because it’s a real thing that happensContinue reading “~Tuesday~”

~Fine~

Disclaimer: This is the real poly that goes on in my imperfect life. It is neither enlightened, nor glamorous, despite what you may think of my awesome poly skills. You have been warned. Alright, poly peeps. Let’s say, you’re having a crabby day. And, in an effort to cheer you up, your partner sends youContinue reading “~Fine~”

~Strange~

Tomorrow morning is our monthly poly potluck. It’s a community thing, and it ranges from a handful of people, to around twenty people, depending on the month. I don’t always attend, as I generally work Sunday nights, and I like to be home with the kids and then I sleep in the afternoon. This monthContinue reading “~Strange~”

~Touch~

I named him Leo, after Leo McGarry from West Wing. He was born ten days before I started nursing school, and he’s an enthusiastic, energetic, creative, affectionate and loving kid. This sucks. I’d like to say, all’s well that ends well, but right now even my bones are exhausted, and Leo just told meContinue reading “~Touch~”

~Boundary~

My ex-husband is mentally ill. Not simply mentally ill. He is utterly disabled. It is something that I had to deal with for many years, as he deteriorated, and became more volatile and violent. He was verbally and emotionally abusive to me and the kids, and sometimes physically abusive. When I took the kids and left,Continue reading “~Boundary~”

~Birthday~

Last weekend I celebrated my birthday with my kids and Special Man and CC. At least that was the plan. We were preparing our Tiny Food (for our Tiny Food party), when my mother walked in. I heard her voice from the kitchen as she walked in. “It’s my mother,” I whispered to SMF. NowContinue reading “~Birthday~”

~Pout~

Sometimes I look around and wonder what on earth I was thinking. Poly is hard, guys. Special Man has a new interest. I suppose at this point he might refer to her as a girlfriend, though I’ve not heard him say it out loud. I know she considers him a boyfriend. And I know I’mContinue reading “~Pout~”

~Uno~

Special Man Friend and his wife came for cards and pizza. It was the first time CC met my children. I cleaned my kitchen and sent one of the boys to pick up pizza. I was really nervous. When I came out to my kids as poly, I was genuinely surprised at the neutrality of theirContinue reading “~Uno~”

~Secret~

My ex-husband lives in a homeless shelter, and there’s nothing I can do about it. In the six years since I took my children and left, he has deteriorated into a person I hardly recognize. I started to read something today, about the #WhyIStayed stories trending on the interwebs. These are the stories of abuseContinue reading “~Secret~”