Poly – Page 2 – Poly Nirvana

~Complicated~

Sometimes, I’m tired of how complicated polyamory is. I get tired of talking about it, thinking about it, reading about it. I understand this is ironic, considering that I’ve spent the last few years, talking about poly, thinking about poly, and writing about poly for goodness sake. I don’t wanna have to think so much aboutContinue reading “~Complicated~”

~Community~

I go back and forth about the poly community. Let’s backtrack. There’s not much of a poly community here. It’s a small-ish, conservative, fairly religious area. Polyamory is still considered immoral by a lot of people, even if they aren’t religious at all. I wasn’t out as poly for a long time, and now, thoughContinue reading “~Community~”

~March~

So March is my anniversary month for the blog. I love my blog. I have gotten so much pleasure and satisfaction from it. I love that I have readers in Germany, and Canada, and dozens of other places. I love the comments and the commenters. Sometimes the stories spill from me in an instant, andContinue reading “~March~”

~Proven~

I like having relationships. I like connection, and intimacy, and comfortably “fitting” with another person in some way. This includes my children, my work friends, my sisters, not just romantic relationships. On my OkCupid profile, which really should be rewritten at some point, I say that I “hate” first dates. This is probably an understatement.Continue reading “~Proven~”

~Summary~

~Job interview was good, nerve-wracking. Haven’t heard anything, and I have no gut feeling one way or the other as to whether or not a job offer is forthcoming. ~I am having some wanderlust. I want new places,new things to look at, new people to watch. ~I paid off my car this month. Friday itContinue reading “~Summary~”

~Me~

I have a job interview in the morning. Hospice. It’s a completely new area for me. I’ve been in labor and delivery for almost nine years, and the idea of doing something new is terrifying and exciting. I don’t know if this is something that will work for me, but I am happy to have somethingContinue reading “~Me~”

~Another~

I’m going out on a First Date on Saturday. Maybe. I get the distinct impression that this guy expects (anticipates?) first date sex. He seems nice. He’s smart (I think), sort of funny (hard to say), super enthusiastic (like a lab puppy that I’m not quite sure I have the energy for). He’s older, educated,Continue reading “~Another~”

~Flight~

Wendover, Nevada. Oh my goodness: A thirty eight minute flight on a plane which was filled with excited and chatty senior citizens. Special Man Friend found a dirt cheap weekend package, and apparently it’s very popular with the over 65 crowd. It’s been a good giggle. (I know I’m no spring chicken. But come on!Continue reading “~Flight~”

~Onward~

Sometimes a really horrible thing can quickly shift your focus. Reorder your priorities. Give you some clarity. I’ve applied for a new job with a local hospice. I’ve made some peace with Mrs. A. I’m determined to love my people and let myself be loved. I’m also not sleeping well. I dream all night, every night,Continue reading “~Onward~”

~Love~

I told him once, that I loved him desperately. He replied that he did not love me with a modifier like desperately. I was crushed. I get it now. If desperately was truly how I felt then, it isn’t how I feel now. The adjectives I feel on this day, in this minute, are infinitelyContinue reading “~Love~”