Poly – Page 3 – Poly Nirvana

~Footing~

Life is messy. It just is. I started writing my blog because I needed to think out loud. I needed to organize my thoughts, in words, sentences; paragraphs. Along the way people noticed, and that was good too. I got feedback and validation and support. I heard from people who liked that I was soContinue reading “~Footing~”

~Review~

I haven’t been able to eat today. I’ve tried. My brain says eat. But I feel sick. Sick with that dread feeling, when there’s so much spilt milk that you are certain you will never be able to clean it up. There will always be another spot, another drop, another puddle. In the Mormon church,Continue reading “~Review~”

/poly/not poly/

One of my most pleasurable tasks in school, was diagramming sentences. (What can I say, I was an odd child.) The compound predicates and the gerund phrases. The modifiers and the prepositions. Adverbs. Interjections. Subjects and verbs. Every word, analyzed and mapped out. Organized. Every single word had a place. It was perfect. It wasContinue reading “/poly/not poly/”

~Hi~

I’ve got holiday burnout. (What? Already?) Yep. I think my enthusiasm tank was running low after Georgia’s surgery, which I haven’t written much about. There were complications. She’s fine. Mostly. Yesterday we had our “official” Christmas dinner. We did it early. I am working the Christmas holiday this year, which means I work 12 hoursContinue reading “~Hi~”

~Distance~

I was talking to a nice man on OKCupid, who lives in Washington. I asked a few questions. You see, not only do I not want to waste my time with an impossible or potentially difficult connection, I also do not want to waste HIS time. I’m considerate like that. We are a high-ish match.Continue reading “~Distance~”

~Cookies~

I stayed up late last night, baking mediocre cookies and building a gingerbread house. I was so tired. I didn’t want to bake cookes. I wanted to have cookies for today’s monthly poly potluck, which was a holiday cookie exchange, but I am not a baker. I should stick with what I know. I should haveContinue reading “~Cookies~”

~Purple~

After we had been together for three years, he gave me a thing. He had been talking about it for a long time. He wanted my thing to be perfect, so he looked, patiently, with no regard to how long it may take, or how impatient I was with the waiting. It was a lotContinue reading “~Purple~”

~Date~

I had a date. A FIRST date, no less. Now, maybe this doesn’t sound like a big deal, but it really was. I think I have first date stage fright. It doesn’t matter if I know my date previously or not, though I will say that blind dates are particularly painful. Especially if it’s someoneContinue reading “~Date~”

~Blood~

I’m feeling sorry for myself. I don’t have much tolerance for people who feel sorry for themselves. I want to shake them and tell them to DO something for themselves, anything that might help. So add impatience with my self-pity to the actual Feeling Sorry-ness and I’m just a mess. Mostly it’s being in theContinue reading “~Blood~”

~Easy~

Thanksgiving was wonderful. There’s no other word for it. It felt happy and comfortable. My house was full, the food was delicious, and my kids didn’t embarrass me. After years of parenting, I figure if my children know this one rule, it covers most behavior: Don’t embarrass me. Fortunately, they can all quote this ruleContinue reading “~Easy~”