April 2015 – Poly Nirvana

~Positive~

I’m quite positive that there’s no way to avoid negativity. I’m a worrier. Conflict makes me sick to my stomach, and awkwardness is worse. You know the kind of awkwardness I mean, when people are trying to be civil but everyone feels tongue-tied and is afraid to speak. SMF and Mrs. A are both hurtContinue reading “~Positive~”

~Brunch~

Today I had a house full of poly people for a waffle brunch. Half of them I had never met. It went really well. I was relieved that Mrs. A didn’t come. She and Special Man Friend have been broken up almost a month. Almost. Actually, she broke up with him, by text. By text,Continue reading “~Brunch~”

~Darkness~

I was date raped. I told myself, long ago, that I would not qualify the rape, as a date rape. Rape is rape, and somehow, whenever I say date rape, I have a vague feeling that I’m apologizing for myself, for my part, for being in that place, with that man, who said he lovedContinue reading “~Darkness~”

~Community~

I go back and forth about the poly community. Let’s backtrack. There’s not much of a poly community here. It’s a small-ish, conservative, fairly religious area. Polyamory is still considered immoral by a lot of people, even if they aren’t religious at all. I wasn’t out as poly for a long time, and now, thoughContinue reading “~Community~”