Gratitude – Poly Nirvana

~March~

So March is my anniversary month for the blog. I love my blog. I have gotten so much pleasure and satisfaction from it. I love that I have readers in Germany, and Canada, and dozens of other places. I love the comments and the commenters. Sometimes the stories spill from me in an instant, andContinue reading “~March~”

~Summary~

~Job interview was good, nerve-wracking. Haven’t heard anything, and I have no gut feeling one way or the other as to whether or not a job offer is forthcoming. ~I am having some wanderlust. I want new places,new things to look at, new people to watch. ~I paid off my car this month. Friday itContinue reading “~Summary~”

~Me~

I have a job interview in the morning. Hospice. It’s a completely new area for me. I’ve been in labor and delivery for almost nine years, and the idea of doing something new is terrifying and exciting. I don’t know if this is something that will work for me, but I am happy to have somethingContinue reading “~Me~”

~Late~

Ten minutes after yesterday’s early morning post, Special Man Friend sent me a text. Come back to bed. I was downstairs on the couch, he was upstairs in my room; he felt so far away. I climbed back into bed, he curled around me, and I had to wonder if he had somehow read my wordsContinue reading “~Late~”

~Another~

I’m going out on a First Date on Saturday. Maybe. I get the distinct impression that this guy expects (anticipates?) first date sex. He seems nice. He’s smart (I think), sort of funny (hard to say), super enthusiastic (like a lab puppy that I’m not quite sure I have the energy for). He’s older, educated,Continue reading “~Another~”

~Flight~

Wendover, Nevada. Oh my goodness: A thirty eight minute flight on a plane which was filled with excited and chatty senior citizens. Special Man Friend found a dirt cheap weekend package, and apparently it’s very popular with the over 65 crowd. It’s been a good giggle. (I know I’m no spring chicken. But come on!Continue reading “~Flight~”

~Love~

I told him once, that I loved him desperately. He replied that he did not love me with a modifier like desperately. I was crushed. I get it now. If desperately was truly how I felt then, it isn’t how I feel now. The adjectives I feel on this day, in this minute, are infinitelyContinue reading “~Love~”

~Review~

I haven’t been able to eat today. I’ve tried. My brain says eat. But I feel sick. Sick with that dread feeling, when there’s so much spilt milk that you are certain you will never be able to clean it up. There will always be another spot, another drop, another puddle. In the Mormon church,Continue reading “~Review~”

~Purple~

After we had been together for three years, he gave me a thing. He had been talking about it for a long time. He wanted my thing to be perfect, so he looked, patiently, with no regard to how long it may take, or how impatient I was with the waiting. It was a lotContinue reading “~Purple~”

~Smiling~

This morning I woke up happy to be ME. I put on goldenrod colored panties and bra, the prettiest set I own. A well-worn pair of jeans slid over my hips and I felt awesome. I have people who love me. A warm house with room for everyone. I have a car, a job, aContinue reading “~Smiling~”