January 2014 – Poly Nirvana

~Fall~

I’ve read that Sara Bareilles wrote this song after her first heartbreak. But I have always internalized it as a love song, and have associated it with SMF in my head since early in our relationship. I think it offers a beautiful image of a deep love with heartache woven throughout. There’s a longing thatContinue reading “~Fall~”

~Listen~

“Stop inviting walls into wide open spaces.” I saw Buddy Wakefield a few years ago, in a tiny dive bar in downtown Boise. He was too large for the shabby venue, and there was so much awesome in his words that I’m sure the dozen or so people in the audience may have missed itContinue reading “~Listen~”

~Not~

Today is not my birthday. But it is the day I gave birth to a small child, fourteen years ago. I called him my angel baby from the beginning. He had such a soft and shiny way about him. Now I look at him and my heart worries. He is still soft and shines bright.Continue reading “~Not~”

~Sleep~

I sleep alone, most of the time. And, mostly, that’s okay. I love feeling him curl up behind me, as he fits the length of his body to mine and I sink back into him. It’s one of my favorite things. “You’re just so soft,” he whispered to me once, many months ago. At theContinue reading “~Sleep~”

~Intersection~

This is where my real relationship and my blog writings intersect. Everything I write is true. All of it. It is not, however, the entirety of my relationships. I cannot write enough to adequately represent the fullness of my life and the love that is between me and Special Man Friend. I self-edit, I pickContinue reading “~Intersection~”

~Hurt~

Conflict is painful. Everyone thinks they are right. Nobody wants to be wrong. If you can get to a point that you can even admit that maybe you were wrong, you certainly weren’t that wrong, and there was a very good reason for what you did, or what you said, or how you acted. IContinue reading “~Hurt~”

Announcing: The Beauty of a Woman BlogFest III!

Originally posted on Girl Boner:
“After nourishment, shelter and companionship, stories are the thing we need most in the world.” — Philip Pullman Like many writers, the preciousness of words and story led me to become one. They were my escape from difficult times in my youth and helped pave the way to my recovery…

~Podcast~

No. I’m not doing a podcast. I did, however, get mentioned on the Poly Weekly podcast over the weekend. I noticed a flurry of hits to one of my writings, and traced it back here: http://polyweekly.com/2014/01/pw-380-advice-secondary/ Oddly, I haven’t been able to listen to it. Special Man Friend listened for me, and said it wasContinue reading “~Podcast~”

~Habitat~

My New Year’s Resolution, or theme for the year, is “Do good things. (But not all the good things!!)” I’m a bit of a failed perfectionist, as my daddy called me once when I was much younger. At the time I didn’t understand, I thought he was making a joke that wasn’t very funny. AndContinue reading “~Habitat~”

~Good~

I have a small aversion to talking on the phone. I can’t remember a time when making phone calls didn’t give me pause. It’s an odd anxiety, and I have no idea where it came from or why it exists. The good news is that it doesn’t stop me from doing the things I needContinue reading “~Good~”