April is almost gone. I did not find a date. I’m pretty much the most monogamous poly person I know. ~Ginger
Monthly Archives: April 2013
~Soliloquy~
I want my brain to quiet and simply be. I want to be alone in the place that teaches me that I am stronger than I think, that I am whole, that I am complete. I want to sink into the depths of myself, where I slowly, gently, touch those dark corners of my innerContinue reading “~Soliloquy~”
~In Brief~
“Everything you want is on the other side of fear.” -Jack Canfield What I’m really afraid of is that I don’t have it in me to do this hard thing well. That I’m not loving enough, understanding enough, selfless enough. That I don’t have it in me, to do good poly. That I will getContinue reading “~In Brief~”
~ Wednesday ~
Place your hands upon me like a big tent preacher and with a whisper heal all that aches inside. Put your lips upon my forehead and glance your eyes to the sky, tell me that I’ll walk again and tell me I can fly. Hold me like a revival and shake the demons from myContinue reading “~ Wednesday ~”
~Ode To The Pet Name~
I am outspoken, opinionated, and difficult. I have a hard, cynical edge. I laugh too loudly, judge too harshly. I am impatient and short tempered. I am independent. Driven. Feisty. Logical to a fault. Jaded. Sometimes I lay awake in the dark, fighting with the demon that whispers to me that I’m not good enough.Continue reading “~Ode To The Pet Name~”
~Consciousness~
“It was rather beautiful: the way he put her insecurities to sleep. The way he dove into her eyes and starved all the fears and tasted all the dreams she kept coiled beneath her bones.” ― Christopher Poindexter
~Constellation~
It’s been almost a year since my son was in a fairly serious car accident, and was taken via Life Flight to a hospital in Seattle in an attempt to save one of his kidneys. Special Man Friend and I had been dating for almost eight months at that point. We knew we loved eachContinue reading “~Constellation~”
~Loved~
“They slipped briskly into an intimacy from which they never recovered.” ~F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Other Side of Paradise This Fitzgerald quote screamed at me the moment I found it more than a year ago, when I was well into my relationship with Special Man Friend. He and I connected fairly quickly on a levelContinue reading “~Loved~”
~Not Enough Hours~
Some days I feel like I have nothing left of myself to offer anyone. Not myself, not my children, my world. It’s not a melancholy that I feel, it’s a weariness that lays on top of my soul and says, “No more.” No more self analysis, no more self improvement, no more lamentations about everythingContinue reading “~Not Enough Hours~”
~Voice~
I am not an activist. I do not have an agenda, and I am not here to promote a platform. I do think people should be able to love and be loved in whichever consensual format they choose. And that includes monogamy. I believe that monogamy is fraught with peril, but all human relationships are.Continue reading “~Voice~”