Jealousy – Poly Nirvana

~Really~

I really don’t get people sometimes. I spent my morning supporting a family through a patient’s death. All I can really say, is that as a hospice nurse, my perspective is constantly being refocused. There are big things happening to people, everywhere, all the time, and we don’t even realize it. Today someone’s father died. SomeoneContinue reading “~Really~”

~Date~

I had a date. A FIRST date, no less. Now, maybe this doesn’t sound like a big deal, but it really was. I think I have first date stage fright. It doesn’t matter if I know my date previously or not, though I will say that blind dates are particularly painful. Especially if it’s someoneContinue reading “~Date~”

~Year~

One year ago today, I posted my first writing on Poly Nirvana, titled “Perfect Poly”. I actually had written it a year before that, out of frustration with the larger poly community and this feeling of not fitting in anywhere; of not being evolved enough to feel true compersion, or mature enough to not everContinue reading “~Year~”

~Try~

Last night a couple of my demons came out from their hiding places, just to remind me that they are still there. They are smaller, and less threatening than I remember them being, but they still took me by surprise. Special Man and I had a date which for some reason, was difficult for meContinue reading “~Try~”

~Swing~

Over the weekend, Special Man and I were in a Dollar Store picking up party supplies, for a “Day of the Dead” themed event I hosted in my home on Saturday night. I’m not sure how we got on the subject of compersion, of all things, as we walked down the medicine aisle, but heContinue reading “~Swing~”

~Burn~

Last night, after dinner out with friends, a margarita and a few bites of Special Man’s Cancun Platter, I sat with him on my bed as he went through his laptop and compiled a list of music to make a CD for me to take with me on a quick road trip. He was doingContinue reading “~Burn~”

~Twitch~

Dear Potential Partner (girlfriend, boyfriend, fling, hook-up, or play partner) of Any of My Partners or other Persons Important To Me, Current or Future: When our paths cross, I will shake your hand, and smile and be honestly pleased to meet you. I am sure that there are lots of good things about you, thingsContinue reading “~Twitch~”

Guest post: Reflections on “perfect poly” by an accidental metamour.

Much love to my Meta, CC, who wrote this, and who should be very proud that she is finding her own way, to her own poly. My husband and I are each two years into our own extramarital relationships, and I still have trouble self-identifying as polyamorous. There are probably people who would place myContinue reading “Guest post: Reflections on “perfect poly” by an accidental metamour.”

~Green~

Mister SMF has a new friend. A new friend who is a girl. They met through OkCupid. She drinks coffee and she is recently split from a husband. That’s all I know. I kind of want to know more about her, this Coffee Girl, but at the same time I’m hesitant to give myself fodderContinue reading “~Green~”

~Compersion, Thou Art A Harsh Mistress~

I think compersion is overrated. There. I said it. There’s nothing in the poly world that has the potential to make me feel more inadequate than the concept of compersion. Compersion as defined by Wikipedia (because, you know, it isn’t a word that has even made it into the dictionary, at least as far asContinue reading “~Compersion, Thou Art A Harsh Mistress~”