March 2014 – Poly Nirvana

~Downfall~

You are my sweetest downfall. I loved you first, I loved you first. Beneath the sheets of paper, lies my truth. This song is all kinds of beautiful and sad. There’s a brokenness about it that I have always loved, and the words shift and change sometimes, and I will find myself reflectingContinue reading “~Downfall~”

~Grace~

“Of course I’ll hurt you. Of course you’ll hurt me. Of course we will hurt each other. But this is the very condition of existence. To become spring, means accepting the risk of winter. To become presence, means accepting the risk of absence.” ~The Little Prince I’ve misplaced my grace. I’m angry about a lotContinue reading “~Grace~”

~Consider~

“If you can’t figure out your purpose, figure out your passion. For your passion will lead you right into your purpose.” ~ T.D. Jakes What’s your passion?

~Year~

One year ago today, I posted my first writing on Poly Nirvana, titled “Perfect Poly”. I actually had written it a year before that, out of frustration with the larger poly community and this feeling of not fitting in anywhere; of not being evolved enough to feel true compersion, or mature enough to not everContinue reading “~Year~”

~So~

My ex-husband is getting married. In two weeks. I found out about this a week ago. Being formerly LDS, and married in the LDS temple, where “eternal marriage” is considered the most holy of ordinances, I received a letter from the church asking me my feelings about him being “sealed” to another woman. “Hallelujah”, IContinue reading “~So~”

~Knit~

Last week for date night, we stayed in and watched a movie with my kids, and a sweet friend Amy and her kids. Special Man brought over a projector, and we ate tacos and cupcakes and laughed and talked. It was a good night. SM had forgotten something at home, so he ran out forContinue reading “~Knit~”

~Drive~

It’s Special Man’s birthday this week. CC is out of town on a business trip until the weekend, so there was talk of a mini-vacation, nothing spectacular, but the prospect of some uninterrupted time with him was intoxicating. As this week neared, he realized he had too much going on at work to take twoContinue reading “~Drive~”

~Things~

I’m out of sorts this week. I don’t know any other way to explain it. I’m irritable, uncomfortable, disconnected. Also, I hate everyone. No, not literally. So, in an effort to consciously change my path, here are some good things that happened to me this week: I received my social security card with my newContinue reading “~Things~”

~Ten~

My ten most recent Google searches, with no comment or explanation: 1) “my top ten google searches” 2) “how to improve sex drive” 3) “accidental butt sex” 4) “muse tattoo meridian idaho” 5) “bronycon Salt Lake 2014” 6) “machiavellianism definition psychology” 7) “how to use a curling wand” 8) “asics rainbow shoes” 9) “poly nirvana”Continue reading “~Ten~”