Self Improvement – Poly Nirvana

~Flight~

Wendover, Nevada. Oh my goodness: A thirty eight minute flight on a plane which was filled with excited and chatty senior citizens. Special Man Friend found a dirt cheap weekend package, and apparently it’s very popular with the over 65 crowd. It’s been a good giggle. (I know I’m no spring chicken. But come on!Continue reading “~Flight~”

~Pout~

Sometimes I look around and wonder what on earth I was thinking. Poly is hard, guys. Special Man has a new interest. I suppose at this point he might refer to her as a girlfriend, though I’ve not heard him say it out loud. I know she considers him a boyfriend. And I know I’mContinue reading “~Pout~”

~Atlanta~

I’ll be in Georgia for the Atlanta Poly Weekend in June, and I’m so excited! I have heard wonderful things about this event, and I’m happy that my friend, the divine Miss M. will be flying down with me. If anyone within the sound of my voice is planning to attend, I want to know aboutContinue reading “~Atlanta~”

~Consider~

“If you can’t figure out your purpose, figure out your passion. For your passion will lead you right into your purpose.” ~ T.D. Jakes What’s your passion?

~Year~

One year ago today, I posted my first writing on Poly Nirvana, titled “Perfect Poly”. I actually had written it a year before that, out of frustration with the larger poly community and this feeling of not fitting in anywhere; of not being evolved enough to feel true compersion, or mature enough to not everContinue reading “~Year~”

~Complicated~

It always is, isn’t it. I’m not even talking specifically about relationship structures, and interpersonal interactions. I’m just talking about LIFE. Making sure that there’s milk in the fridge and toilet paper in the closet, and that you take your iron pill every day. Keeping an eye on the laundry so that you aren’t beingContinue reading “~Complicated~”

~Much~

I should be asleep. The house is dreadfully quiet. The children have gone to my mother’s for a Thanksgiving meal, and I have been left alone to sleep. I got home from work this morning at 8am, and I’ll leave for another shift a little after 6pm. But I can’t sleep. I’ve had an amazingContinue reading “~Much~”

~Memorial~

Today in a thrift store, I found a wedding cake topper that is identical to the one that was on my wedding cake twenty-one years ago. I’d had a vague idea that I wanted to have something to represent the death of my marriage for the Day of the Dead altar I am planning onContinue reading “~Memorial~”

~Sliver~

A good portion of my interactions with Special Man Friend take place via technology like text, email, and Google Talk. He lives twenty minutes away from me (twenty five on a heavy traffic day…) and I see him at least once a week, usually twice. It’s important to me to have some daily contact, thoughContinue reading “~Sliver~”

~Returning~

I feel as if I’m in some sort of No Man’s Land. I’m doing much better than even last week as far as pain goes, but my body is tired all of the time, if not utterly exhausted. I’m starting to realize how many things I need to take care of, things that were necessarilyContinue reading “~Returning~”