December 2014 – Poly Nirvana

/poly/not poly/

One of my most pleasurable tasks in school, was diagramming sentences. (What can I say, I was an odd child.) The compound predicates and the gerund phrases. The modifiers and the prepositions. Adverbs. Interjections. Subjects and verbs. Every word, analyzed and mapped out. Organized. Every single word had a place. It was perfect. It wasContinue reading “/poly/not poly/”

Save yourself.

The air hostess with her smiling fingers sings the speech of The Oxygen Mask, of putting your own on first which, of course is (not) selfish but we tend to be of no use to anyone if we are gasping for breath. I breathe, somewhere between lightheaded, and useless the soft plastic of the faceContinue reading “Save yourself.”

~Hi~

I’ve got holiday burnout. (What? Already?) Yep. I think my enthusiasm tank was running low after Georgia’s surgery, which I haven’t written much about. There were complications. She’s fine. Mostly. Yesterday we had our “official” Christmas dinner. We did it early. I am working the Christmas holiday this year, which means I work 12 hoursContinue reading “~Hi~”

~Haiku for Middle Age~

Today I bought a butter dish, and thought Fuck me, I must have grown up.

The elusive orgasm of words.

I am trying to get something out into the universe, and it’s just. Right. There. It won’t come. I get close. There’s a tingle that starts to build. A beautiful, complete, sentence materializes, and I feel a small rush. I wait. But what comes next is a brittle collection of words that sends me backContinue reading “The elusive orgasm of words.”

~Distance~

I was talking to a nice man on OKCupid, who lives in Washington. I asked a few questions. You see, not only do I not want to waste my time with an impossible or potentially difficult connection, I also do not want to waste HIS time. I’m considerate like that. We are a high-ish match.Continue reading “~Distance~”

~Cookies~

I stayed up late last night, baking mediocre cookies and building a gingerbread house. I was so tired. I didn’t want to bake cookes. I wanted to have cookies for today’s monthly poly potluck, which was a holiday cookie exchange, but I am not a baker. I should stick with what I know. I should haveContinue reading “~Cookies~”

~Insipid~

nothing tastes good any more Salt my fingertips, and take them into your mouth. Let me feel the wet thick of your tongue as it moves over and under. Pull my mouth to yours remind me that I am still here and that a little salt can save anyone

~Purple~

After we had been together for three years, he gave me a thing. He had been talking about it for a long time. He wanted my thing to be perfect, so he looked, patiently, with no regard to how long it may take, or how impatient I was with the waiting. It was a lotContinue reading “~Purple~”

~Date~

I had a date. A FIRST date, no less. Now, maybe this doesn’t sound like a big deal, but it really was. I think I have first date stage fright. It doesn’t matter if I know my date previously or not, though I will say that blind dates are particularly painful. Especially if it’s someoneContinue reading “~Date~”