April 2018 – Poly Nirvana

~Unclear~

This week is a cluster. I have to remind myself to keep breathing. Slowly; deeply. I imagine the breath seeping all the way down to my toes, before lazily traveling back up through my body and then out into the universe. Stress is challenging. I like to know things, plan things, control things. The timesContinue reading “~Unclear~”

~Daughter~

My youngest child, and only daughter, is twelve today. She frustrates and confuses me sometimes. She’s brilliant, opinionated, detail oriented, and a blatant perfectionist. She wants things done right. She cries when she is angry. Then I have to remind myself. She frustrates me, because she is like me. And I don’t know exactly howContinue reading “~Daughter~”

~Trend~

When I used the word “polyamory” for the first time with my Dad, I told him, “It’s kind of a trendy thing right now.” He and his girlfriend looked at each other and laughed, and she said, “We definitely aren’t trendy.” Unfortunately it’s become such a watered down term these days, inconsistent in it’s definitionContinue reading “~Trend~”

~The Angry Polyamorist~

I used to have big important things to write. I had issues to explore. I thought I could offer something new to the conversations surrounding hierarchy, metamours, conflict in polyamory, and the culture of poly. I had things to say. Then I got cynical. I got impatient with watching the constant stream of people doingContinue reading “~The Angry Polyamorist~”

~Respite~

noun: respite a short period of rest or relief from something difficult or unpleasant. *(Google Dictionary) I needed rest. Relief. Things were difficult. Things were unpleasant. And suddenly, it’s a year and a half later. I’m still me. I’m still poly. But I am solo, single, solitary. I like to think I’m philosophically polyamorous, but IContinue reading “~Respite~”